Monday, October 19, 2009

Calculating Lecture Seating

Old attitude.

"It's not going much better, I live alone in a bigger prison" (Oh Dae-soo - OLD BOY)


This is not true that when you die your whole life you before one's eyes like a movie, and people think you are more expensive.

We are selfish animals, please realize this.

not think about the people you value most, you will not see any pictures that you passed on that joyful in life.
will only a aglomerato visions confusing and distressing, while fumbling, looking for a way to survive.

Honesty is not always easy to handle, in fact, it never is.
is one of the best virtue that can be donated, but it is also the best weapon to kill himself.

Lying is the most malleable, you can get her to say them, you may do, you can make her believe what you want, what you like.

Try to turn pink because everything else is too rare to see, is not it?








西村 .

Sunday, October 18, 2009

March Of Dimes Team Names

Fleeing deception.

Gongolo'm here because I do not know whether to upgrade or not.
of things I would have to say - I always have something to say! - Except that, simply do not know whether it is appropriate to explain.
Actually I was thinking of making this blog private, but I have a strong conflict about it.
We'll let the public because often scream to the world the things I write, indeed, always. I would like
private because there are things I would say that maybe are not public affairs.
The problem is that these things do not feel like writing, even if this blog was limited to one or two people.
I worry, really! I worry, everyone.









西村 .

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Polyester Running Tights

Unknow soulmate.

[...] only thing missing is the singer Kyo, hidden in the band bus. It has been described several times as mysterious, dark, incommunicative, a poet and a genius by those who met him or heard his music. Offstage writes poetry under the name Tooru Nishimura and claims not to have friends of any kind. Can simply stand on stage in front of the public and refuse to sing. It can also cut and bleed on the floor. Or, you can simply open his mouth and pour out the words that he says come from the darkest place I know - his heart.
rarely speaks to the press. But today he made an exception and is called by the band bus to the dressing room to sit beside her bandmate Kaoru. For the most part let the guitar speak, preferring to sit quietly in a corner, looking so deadly in front of himself a blank wall. It is only later, when is alone, that begins to speak of the forces that drive it - early in monosyllables, but then more fluidly.
Both speak with a translator, their English is fast enough for a conversation but can not go further. So, gradually, the band's history is apparent in this quiet dressing room backstage - the first in Japanese then in English
.[...] It was shortly after the publication of the second album, Macabre, which is something that happened would change the life of the singer Kyo forever. Standing too close to a flash box, used for pyrotechnics on stage, has become deaf left ear. Hospitalized and terrified that he would never have heard fell into depression.
"I was scared, the only thing I had was the music and suddenly it seemed that I could no longer write" he says. "This has me terrified. I did not know what would happen. I am a singer and if I can not hear, I can not even sing. "
When Kyo was released from the hospital - not deaf, as feared, but the left ear with the hearing permanently damaged - it was very changed. Finished ornaments were gorgeous, the shimmering makeup and costumes of the visual kei movement that once the band followed. In their place was a singer with renewed vigor, with a poor view of its physical sensations on the stage. It cut the skin before the public, clawing his face and chest, relying solely on his instincts. It is something that still does.
"I never thought that people would give all this importance to the appearance - that's why I started to hurt me on stage," he says. "This marks the point where I really wanted to push myself to try to convey more of myself through my words. Now everything happens exactly as you see on stage. Do not scare me, but I lose a lot of control. "
is a complex figure, as he sits quietly alongside guitarist Kaoru, it is only when it remains just beginning to talk. In any case, most say, unless you think you can figure it out. Abruptly each approach to the meaning of his lyrics, or about what inspires him - only answered "I write about what I'm trying the exact memento of this writing." Some of his songs include themes such as rape, abortion, abuse, sexual obsessions and religion - issues that have attracted the attention of the band on the Japanese censors.
experiences that are tested on their skin?
"I do not want to talk about."
These are experiences that have touched his close friends?
"I do not want to talk about."
are stories that you read it?
"I will not talk about it. I prefer that people give their own interpretation. I want people to listen to music and words as a whole - this is not to pull out a special meaning. For me it's the same when I listen to a CD in English. I do not understand the words but listen to the sounds that the singer produces and join all the music. It's so I want to be listened to our music. "
What is clear, I think, is that Kyo's lyrics do not come from a happy place. Translating, most scenarios show that at best they are sad.
"I'm very pessimistic, so even if every time something good happens, I always think it will not be forever - will disappear," he says. "I feel like if there was anything good in my life."
So for him to write is a form of therapy?
"I wish I had something in my life, which is capable of clearing, but I do not think they do write and sing, "he says. "I do not think that things will never be good for me. I would like to stop being a pessimistic person, but I think if I became a happy, carefree, I would not be myself. "
is solitary by choice, one that has few friends and that allows a few to get closer. While living in close contact with his bandmates, who knows from childhood, it remains alone on the sidelines.
"I've never known anyone to be that friend really," he says. "Many people believe they are my friends, but I've never met anyone whose personality align with mine. There are many people with whom I can stay on a superficial level, but I can never go more in depth with anyone. On your phone, if someone has not been felt for six months, the gate so I do not remember who he is. "
" It's not that I do not want people who are close to me or know me - I'm just living my life, "he adds. "I like that. I live as I suggest in my emotions, my feelings. They are the opposite of Kaoru - never wants to get carried away by his emotions, but I always do. My emotions are all over. I do everything I feel I have to do. "

- interview for Kerrang!

not I translated it, I do not even remember where I got it, I had simply saved in the PC.
Sorry.








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Thursday, October 15, 2009

Wood Stove Enamel Paint

Burnt liberty.

The title this time, says something.
Freedom, now I hate to talk about freedom. A
of the few times I started to watch tv-series that is not to follow that interest me-particularly, I found myself watching a talk show I can not remember the name, on two rai, where the topic was homosexuality ;.
They spoke on the subject of several things: the violence that occur more frequently against persons omosessiali, which can cause embarrassment to see a gay couple down the street, and has gone on to discuss how to present, react to the company, etc etc.
I have to say that there have been interventions by some competent people who have done me a lot of pleasure; others who left me like shit.
I do hard work, more and more each passing day, to understand the mentality of people that discriminate against homosexuality.
Indeed, people who discriminate in general, but the fact of homosexuality is particularly dear to me naturally.
In this program, a guest was a young homosexual, which I had around 20 years old, dressed in a fairly striking - and wonderful, in my opinion. "
a chick, it is allowed to say exactly this phrase: 'You dressed that way, all of ridicules gays!'.
I think that if I was there, in that time, I would split my head against the first edge at hand. No
Oh well, would never do that, but I was literally shocked by this statement.
And that's just one of many that emerged from the mouth of the same chick.
He said the dress so striking that people often adopt homosexual is nothing more than a desire to be seen and get attention, has not listened to in practice, the boy, when he explained that his way of dressing is what he is, not his homosexuality.
There is much to say about this, really, on How long and found limited mode of expression of an individual.
not stand the fact that it is considered ridiculous and self-centered character who dresses in a striking manner in the eyes of today's society, and I hate that freedom of expression what is considered eccentric.
generalize by saying that I hate the fact that gay men are dressed in flashy way.
is a society where there is only the race, the type, the prototype of a character which can be found among the multitude, and the individual is deceased.
Individuality is the only thing that distinguishes us, and we can fight for this.
And freedom of expression is the only way that a person and an artist, to express themselves.
is impossible to suppress it, impossible.
will come out in one way or another, trust me, go out, and that freedom will be at its best.









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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Name Brand Diaper Bags For Less

Forced sleep.

Sera.
I was thinking.
I was thinking about what I might find myself doing these damned after 5 years of high school.
In theory, when I chose this school, my goal was to go for architecture.
are usually one that decides if something is just, but this time was not exactly so.
I sent to that country along with the physical architecture and the university about it because of all those plans, those measures, those rules, you are obliged to respect when 'writing'.
I say 'create' in quotes because from my point of view the word 'create' is too much for this discipline. I
limited too, does not give me 'the chance to do what I want, and do not hate freedom of expression in art.
What do you do art even if you do not have the opportunity to make the most of your inspiration?
For me it is a foolish thing, even to imagine.
Unfortunately, I realized this a couple of years ago. Too late in fact.
My interest then moved in philosophy / psychology, and is not a mystery.
And so starts a mental journey with no end to what could be a possible future to study psychology, philosophy, and especially criminal psychology.
But there is a problem: I do not think philosophy is appropriate for the study, because even dead I'm going to do the teaching.
This obstacle, however, persists even for psychology.
I mean, if you finish it in to be a psychologist, or something like that?
This would require something that are not capable of doing: interacting with people.
I'd really be able to study the mind 360 degrees, but the experience is practically necessary.
is absurd, send an example of modern misanthropic as myself, to interact with some mentally ill, is not it?
juice of the speech, psychology and even if they are derived from the list of candidates.
One problem that arose while I pondered on the possible way in psychology, is was the fact that I would not have space for art.
I would not have space for art, and are more certain.
We are crazy?
is absurd to even think about it, you can continue on my way if I'm away from the hands can create.
And I think that says it all.
I'm afraid that I'll finish the academy, or at least that's what I would do.
Of course, the artist's life, it would be something very beautiful, is not it?
dear God, I would take 7 lives to do everything that I want to do, to know everything that interests me.
Too little time, too little.
Ossi, I run the ball, and not a little.









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Monday, October 12, 2009

Free Futuristic Mmorpg

Still life.

Oh yes, I have good news. The cat is alive! It is not the best conditions, but is improving very, very
~ I'm counting on, really.
However, talk of nothing else.
Last night I was thinking about a few things that I recently blending in the head too often, though I know it's just me.
I was thinking about how I have of expressing myself, 'artistically' talking.
is absurd, in relation to the way I have to act against anything (or almost).
Why are purely instinctive art. And no, 'instinctive' would not seem a very appropriate term to me.
I mean, that element before anything else, think, think, think and think.
With art no. Everything comes in a second, is expressed in a little more. Without
premedirazione, without anything of an architect. it's all instinctive, and it is fantastic.
I can not conceive the intent in my art (if you can call it), I can not conceive that an inspiration nemmero can be taken in different points.
Fatico, struggled to take it up with the days going forward.
must end all there, in that moment that I feel are right.
Even with the writing, and I do not speak of what I write here. Or
thoughts, maybe that is so intense, that there is not space to take a piece of paper for notes.
And then I sit there, stunned no one knows where, to think of something, so nobody knows anything, to let them slide and decipher if I want to do it.
Maybe I'm working on some kind of theory, and not even a trace remains. Sometimes is a bit 'heartbreaking, in fact, but I like it.
I am using this instinct often lately. Or simply, feelings that I feel I have.
They have always worked, even when they gave us a straight but I knew that there were, and I start to think about what was good to do and what not.
And then, the way you choose, the views you get, it was always the one that originally corresponded to my feelings.
on anything: theories, people, decisions of any kind.
just that sometimes seem crazy, so I give up clinging to sanity.
I do not think I'll do more, from now on. I will leave
room for this flow of ideas, who just wants to be heard, because I love this mode of expression.
And then, it has a taste of freedom.









西村 .

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Homer Simpson Tattoo Woman

Death sentence.


† ☆
02/08/2009 11/10/2009





was one of the rare times that was worth the tears pour.

This time I dared to touch it, to hear it before it passed the other side ...


I preferred her to you, even as v'immaginate.





This is what I was writing during the three hours of agony that I spent here at home waiting for someone to tell me what the fuck was going on.
Last night my cat got sick hath been. I did not sleep last night. Complaints
all night. Never heard anything more heartbreaking.
morning when they took her to the vet was almost dead, have a narrow escape.
Dehydration, has collapsed, also has the gastrointerite, and there was no damage to the kidneys.
Now there with a drip of water, hoping he recovers, but the conditions are not the best, say it is the last resort for not telling us too soon: 'I'm sorry ...'.
wait.









Saturday, October 10, 2009

The Breville Breadmaster

Fucker subjugation.

Hello.
are in a good mood today, so I feel compelled to shoot shit to something or someone.
I wanted to speak of the subordination that some people take against the undersigned.
I will not name, would not help, then if you do not specific to the vehicles involved think and feel, so we see to eliminate this terrible scourge ~
However it is not a speech addressed to all, quiet.
What do I mean subordination?
nonsoqualeassurdomotivo mean that many people tend to regard everything I say / think / do at face value.
Now I must explain what the hell you have a problem.
Parliament, it was concluded that it could be a subspecies of behavior dictated by a fear in me.
is because it is known that when I pissed are anything but nice? What is this? You tell me?
There are people who suddenly change your mind about any topic after hearing my opinion.
Even if I die enticed by the idea of having a herd of young believers who treats me like I'm the God on earth, it annoys me to death.
fact, you do that annoys me, really makes me angry.
Besides the fact that in this way sent to that country any kind of discussion, debate and I like it so much ~
That time, when you came into the world, you have with gray matter that has slowly grown and developed.
For goodness sake, there's those who remained in poor condition, but other elements should have reached a good level.
However, even those who can not afford to brag to your insight, it seems to me that free will is all right.
Well, well, straight. For a holy
Once you have a right slut whore, USE IT! Do you have a
your head, their ideas, what inspires you to think that your plans should be directly tied to my eventual opinion? What?
do not know if there is ever giving me reason to think that each brought her up, buy my sympathy, but know that it is not so, indeed: those who have assumed this behavior is becoming gradually all my disgust.
I swear. I bump into people from dying who are unable to support their own idea and fight for it, and just as people who submit to others.
So, my dear ragazzuoli who feel involved in this speech (a few, hopefully), Think about it a bit ', which I'm really Svang of your behavior, and it takes little to send you to do elsewhere ~










Friday, October 9, 2009

Gettin Nipples Pierced

Crazy hallucinations.

The livejournal is strange questions.
asking if we believe in the soul mate, you too have seen the box for the 'writer's block'.
I was reminded Placebo, Sleeping with ghost: 'Dry Your Eyes ... soulmates never die '.
I've never heard of such a thing? NO.
And then you continue to not hear me talk about things like that and you are about your cazzacci.
I just wanted to point to my recollection Placebo ~
anyway.
I'm home for 3 days (including today), due to various ailments like colds, cough, swollen tonsils (and the result is a bodybuilder neck: bad thing), and a few lines of fever that now seems to be gone.
During the two days is not that made me too aware of being in the world, so the fact that I had not many things that distract not troubled me much.
But today that are perfectly capable of discernment, I feel the urge to bang his head violently against the edge of the table because they are without tobacco. And remember, I'll starmene all day at home doing nothing, is not at all pleasant without tobacco! Porco ... EMH.
bet you have noticed that I changed my skin. What you're awake!
Seh, it's Kyo. I know that is too bad, what can you do, but it's a character, and I am pleased as bringing this header (as well as avatars to tell the truth). I am quite satisfied with this skin, even if they are consapevele that is nearly monochromatic.
Seh, those guys are on the rise even in the English rock ... let us make the compliments.
Hmmm. No, I have a fuck to tell you! Maybe it is better to upgrade
knowing that he had some intellectual activity, which in those days I had, because my thought was most insightful look like, 'How do I get the tissues without getting up from the couch ? '.
will be better if I go back to bed and end up shooting menate.










Saturday, October 3, 2009

Lyrics For Baptist Hymns

Abnormal beauty.

design originally done on Fabriano paper A4, light, smooth.
China for drawing with pen, brush for writing.
Watercolor for the spit of hair. To best size, go
HERE .






is really, really, a obrobrio design. At the same time, always the same techniques, always the same artists, the same song. But this time the result is wrong. I like the concept, but not too much the way I have expressed (the one below is much better in other words).
So now it will take a month and a half before taking over in his hand a pen, pencils and what we go after. Eh, what can I say that, so it goes.
Yes I know, is very macabre, but that's okay ~
That day will see me draw things funny, or I'll go crazy, or am I in love, which is more or less and the same thing: please, do not give me straight in similar cases eh.
But what I know, I have nothing to tell. Take
well as a post of courtesy, the series' I felt guilty because I did not write a long ', and while I did not let anything substantial.
I think too much and say nothing, that are cute ~