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odietamomihi @ 2007-10-29T20: 49:00

Im falling down the black hole of depression. I just want to eat eat eat, i cannot find anyone here outside that could help me, i cannot control myself anymore. 
I'm feeling useless.
i don't want to die, because i know, my mother wold die, but i ...i don't know, i'm just feeling alone, fat, ugly. And i know, i am! 
i'm so sad that i can't cry.
Just feel empty, inside.

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odietamomihi @ 2007-10-12T17: 40:00

 OMG!! i'm so proud of myself! Now i can say that I've control!

Yesterday I met my friends, and they  invited me for dinner (it was ,uhm...19.30!) and i just said sorry i've just eaten (even if my stomach was rumbling ...LOL) but they told me o nooo you must come...ok ...They cooked pasta with tomato sauce+bacon+onion(my favouriteeeeee) URGH than grilled tomatoes with oil ...but the worst is yet to come: they ate CHOCOLATE and another very very very good dessert .... BUT ... I was dying I did not eat ANYTHING ... I felt so good, When i went to bed ... very very proud

... And today I've Received my Hunger strips from UK, I hope They work ...
girls, stay strong, it feels soooooooooooo good, not to fail! xox

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mmmh ...

Yesterday I did my daily guide, probably because I was ashamed / embarrassed too ... It 's all started so well, with a small cup of milk and cereals are perfect ... ... my 180/200 cal . day ... walking like a mule, I did not stop for a moment .... and then .... and then ----- AND THEN!! I hate the appetizer, I hate it because really it ... heck AMMMOOOOO Hunting Hunting ----- at least I limited in the drink ... 0.33 cl coca cola (160c) + the infamous junk food snacks ..... damn ..... I have eaten at least 100 cals. hehe ... but that shit is not over here .... perlamiseria the evening I went out and nooooo I have taken another coca cola .... nooooo but a cocktail with Kahlua CREAM OF WHISKEY AND SOME OTHER SHIT HEAT AND ALCOLICISSIMA .... Do not even dare eimmaginare calories yesterday! ... (surely of 500 + ... ARGH I hate myself)


pass over ....

today goes much, much better .... I started the day with a mushroom soup, which contained only 20 per 100g kal, I've made 40 ... ergo: 8 cals! Legendary! By then 20 ... g of unleavened bread: 70 c. ... like carbohydrates only 2 (number of) .... not sticks I know what they're worth very little .... but .... I guess the only thing that I discovered only now, is that I drank 2 much 2 cups of coffee + sugar ... total of 80 calories ... I swallowed more calories with the coffee throughout the day ... cacchio.Totale Approximate counting GRISS that the two have had a weight of 10g, and 1.5 cals: 160 calories ... not bad at all !!!!! ! But you can do better ... fast.

I'll stay strong, I'll resist, I'll be skinny ...

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odietamomihi @ 2007-10-08T23: 03:00

I love how the clothes literally fall when you lean on me ... And I love when my legs are so thin as to look like the giant feet, and heavy ... Unfortunately
are far from him vedermeli -----


Today
day super ok! Besides my daily cup of cereal with milk (now a little more, I think 220 cals) I only ate 10 grams of unleavened bread (I love to death) or 37.7 cals ..... wow a total of 257, 7 cals ... and I even walked this morning ... ahhh capers almost forgot a coffee with sugar (urgh!!) but I do not know how many cal. amounts .... Oh well ... pretty good for today huh!

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Sunday, October 7 - how Was this day? JUST PERFECT! Welcome to my vent ....

guide of the day, which I was pretty positve: Breakfast: the usual cereal and milk + coffee = 200 cal lunch: nothing:) snack / dinner: 40 g unleavened bread (urgh!) 134 cal. + 30 gr. pork loin, 39 cal ..... dela day total: 373 cals !!!!! OMG, I prorpio reason to have a good hunch ... Anyway, I also drank lots of liquids ... As usual, no movement, but also because study extreme laziness .... see you tomorrow!

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I think will be one of the first on a blog, and Italian. And I hope that you will ever know who I am in reality. Because what we seek, and I speak of those who seek refuge in the vents and diaries online, it's just simply get rid of emotions, anger and sadness that could not otherwise get out, making the risk implosion.

Today I started my fast. I hope at least this time to finish it, as long as possible.
guide: with cup- of milk with cereal-Pr a piece of unleavened bread market with other slice of bread unleavened cereal + meat .... not bad. But you can do better.

And 'I do not know what my willpower is strong. Indeed. My trouble is to compulsive overeater, so do not know if it's possible ... "change course".
Eccheccacchio. I have to do it, I'm sick of not being able to dress how I want.



I think this will be one of the first italian blog Concerning ED. And I Hope that no one will ever know who I really am. Because What We Want from a blog, and I talk about who write about his / her problems on the internet, is just to feel free, and scream out lout emotions, angry, sadness that never never come out, and this is really dangerous, for our soul.

Today I re-begin to fast. I hope that this time I will do it well, as long as i can do.
What I've eaten today: Brkfst:cup of milk with Special K Lunch:a piece of bread without yeast Break: another piece of that bread+meat...Not bad, but i can do better,

The fact is that i don't know how strong my willpower is. My ED is "Compulsive Over eater", so i don't know if it's possible to change "course"...
WTF i have to do it. I can't endure the fact that i can't buy the clothes that i like.